an uphill battle…

i’ve decided that i will take this opportunity to discuss a current health journey of mine that i’ve been enduring. i try to spread positivity because i believe everyone can use that, especially people feeling extra low in life.

one of my many health journeys began in october of 2020. i was diagnosed with bipolar depression at the raw age of twenty-one. i immediately thought to myself after being diagnosed, that i was feeling really weighed down by having this massive title hanging over my head. was i really bipolar? i accepted this diagnosis and began treatment. i went into this process with no clue as to what i was truly about to endure. the side effects have included panic attacks, restless legs, migraines, and landed me in the emergency room.

fast forward, as you can now understand that nothing within this process has been easy. i have now experienced dozens of bipolar, depression, and anxiety medications. i have experienced every side effect in the book. i have ruined numerous relationships. i have lost jobs and opportunities at life and with school due to this.

as many do not, nor could they ever fathom what this is like… i know that many also can relate to this- what feels as a never ending cycle.

as far as advice goes, all i can say is that each person and their struggle varies. there are no two people with the same experience. however, as for others that do not know how to maintain a relationship with someone struggling. i suggest loyalty- standing by their side even at their lowest point.

for the people that are always in my corner, that are always understanding, that are always willing to lift me up, they know who they are. however, i will give my hardworking mother who has helped pay bills, held my hand, wiped tears, and saved me during my most agonizing moments. and, brooke who has been here every step of the way since she entered my life. she has rooted for me, encouraged me, and been a shoulder to cry on. for my sweet baby bug, who has let me hug her, curled up next to me (usually on my head), you are my emotional support pet and my soul pet. i will give THEM a shoutout. i could never express how grateful i am for your constant love and support.

though this has not been an easy journey with anyone involved, i am surviving this for another day. i kicked today’s ass. i will get through this! i never lose hope and i hope that in your struggles and journeys, that you too will remain optimistic. it gets better!

– just jacie