just jacie

an uphill battle…

i’ve decided that i will take this opportunity to discuss a current health journey of mine that i’ve been enduring. i try to spread positivity because i believe everyone can use that, especially people feeling extra low in life.

one of my many health journeys began in october of 2020. i was diagnosed with bipolar depression at the raw age of twenty-one. i immediately thought to myself after being diagnosed, that i was feeling really weighed down by having this massive title hanging over my head. was i really bipolar? i accepted this diagnosis and began treatment. i went into this process with no clue as to what i was truly about to endure. the side effects have included panic attacks, restless legs, migraines, and landed me in the emergency room.

fast forward, as you can now understand that nothing within this process has been easy. i have now experienced dozens of bipolar, depression, and anxiety medications. i have experienced every side effect in the book. i have ruined numerous relationships. i have lost jobs and opportunities at life and with school due to this.

as many do not, nor could they ever fathom what this is like… i know that many also can relate to this- what feels as a never ending cycle.

as far as advice goes, all i can say is that each person and their struggle varies. there are no two people with the same experience. however, as for others that do not know how to maintain a relationship with someone struggling. i suggest loyalty- standing by their side even at their lowest point.

for the people that are always in my corner, that are always understanding, that are always willing to lift me up, they know who they are. however, i will give my hardworking mother who has helped pay bills, held my hand, wiped tears, and saved me during my most agonizing moments. and, brooke who has been here every step of the way since she entered my life. she has rooted for me, encouraged me, and been a shoulder to cry on. for my sweet baby bug, who has let me hug her, curled up next to me (usually on my head), you are my emotional support pet and my soul pet. i will give THEM a shoutout. i could never express how grateful i am for your constant love and support.

though this has not been an easy journey with anyone involved, i am surviving this for another day. i kicked today’s ass. i will get through this! i never lose hope and i hope that in your struggles and journeys, that you too will remain optimistic. it gets better!

– just jacie

spread the word

welcome back! are you getting into the groove of your week yet? i was lucky enough to have a long weekend. i’m still in weekend mode but slowly transitioning. i’ve just sat down to do some late night blogging, my favorite.

i have been pushing myself recently to partake in some new activities. one of which has been creating an up and running blog. i have spent this last week sharing once daily. i have stepped outside of my comfort zone and never been more proud of myself.

as the week progresses, i intend to share my blog on social media in hopes of gaining a following. i feel very passionately about sharing inspiration, helping others, and getting to grow within my writing.

i am extremely content with what i have. however, i am working for what i want! i dream of publishing a book one day. this is just one small stepping stone in the process. what are you working for currently?

just remember, tomorrow is a new day to participate in a new activity. i suggest trying something new. tomorrow is another day to follow your dreams.

– just jacie

do you have pride?

my weekend has concluded, sadly. when i reflect, i spent my weekend making memories that will last for a lifetime.

as many know, june is pride month! a month in which lgbtq pride is the promotion of equality. a month that celebrates love and acceptance.

i put my energy into celebrating and uniting with other prideful individuals. as june is abruptly ending, i am here to remind everyone to accept and love others.

love for all

just remember, everyone deserves to experience love!

here comes the sun!

well, the weekend has arrived at last. the sun does not appear to be shining today. however, the sun is still coming with great love and warmth.

though the sun appears to be nonexistent, you can still allow light into your life. whatever is providing those rain clouds in your life, rid yourself of them. clear skies are in the forecast. you control your own nature.

which leads me to a question for you. are you balancing your cloudy and sunny days? in order to witness growth, you must find a balance. everyday, you have the privilege of determining what your forecast for the day will look like.

just know, only you have the power to control the atmospheric conditions, friends! have a positive weekend full of beaming rays!

are you there totally?

whatever is consuming the majority of your precious time, are you all there? are you providing your all?

i often peruse through anything involving inspiration or positivity. as the week is concluding, the weekend is beginning. i intend to spend my weekend with my beautiful girlfriend, brooke and my sweet puppy, bug. i am going to push myself to absorb every moment. i will be present and wherever i am, i will be totally there.

my question for you is, will you be totally there too? push yourself this weekend to really dive in and live solely in the moment.

take your weekend to set phones aside, turn the television off, and indulge in yourself and your relationships.

just remember, this is the last weekend of june. let us all end on a positive note and begin july with pure intentions and a practical mindset.

are your “flowers” blooming?

today, while skimming through social media as part of my daily morning routine, i found this photo. i scrolled past the quote and then quickly returned. i reread the words and sat for a moment. something about this quote resonates within me.

we are quickly approaching the end of the week, with gloomy weather here in illinois. therefore, i felt that a quote with some depth was appropriate.

when i sit and reflect, i think of all the obstacles- both, big and small that i have overcame. i feel empowered when i acknowledge how far i have come in just this last year. how far have you come?

i personally find my innermost strength when i recall all of the hardships i’ve overcame. i recommend taking time to review all of your accomplishments. look how far you have came and will continue to come.

happy thursday to all of my fellow bloggers and followers. i hope you will find the strength to finish your week out strong!

just remember, your flowers are blooming!

this is your sign that it is time

have you been feeling as though life is too much? this time of year is bustling! i myself have been feeling a bit more exhausted than usual. the sweltering heat, unforeseen expenses, hardship with finding work, and struggling with my health journey has just been enough to make me feel exhaustion in my core.

this is your sign that you should take a personal day. a day in which is entirely revolved around yourself. remember that if you are feeling worn thin, you may need time to rejuvenate and recuperate.

i personally like to wind down with some coloring, skateboarding, movies, and cleaning my personal space. what helps you to feel your best? take time to file your nails, take a bath, and pamper yourself.

there is great importance with controlling your mental state. do not allow yourself to run out of fuel. invest the time within yourself. you deserve it!

just remember, your now is not your forever -john green

who are you really?

for as long as i can recall, i have been an introvert. as a child, i would reluctantly play with the other kids. as an adult, i’ve dug a little deeper into personality types and what love languages are. as for my personality type- my letters are an “infj” which stands for: introverted, intuitive, feeling, and judging.

i recommend getting acquainted with your personality types and love languages. the reason i feel this way is because i have seen how detrimental ignorance on the topics can be. you are building a relationship of some sort with each person that you encounter. to understand others and why they may be the way that they are is extremely important to developing successful and healthy relationships.

to piggy back off of what i previously mentioned, love languages are of great importance. i say this with such confidence because your knowledge of love languages will help you with more than just your significant other. it is important to be certain that you are tending to all parts of your imaginary garden. your garden is full of various vegetables and fruits. in order to create success, you must tend to each individual growth and provide what is needed. for example, my love language is gift giving. i feel loved and cared for when i receive gifts because i know whomever gave the gift was thinking of me. furthermore, i also enjoy giving gifts because i love to analyze every detail and create a true sentiment. however, your other side of the “garden” may need something completely different in order to flourish.

today, i just want my viewers to gather that personality types and love languages may be much more important than what you had anticipated. i will provide a link to a personality test and love language quiz so that you too can become the best version of yourself and create awareness within.

personality test

https://www.123test.com

love language quiz

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getting to know “just jacie”

i have always been quirky. i don’t like grilled cheese sandwiches so now i know you must understand. i have strayed from being “normal” my whole life. i am dark and twisty at times. this is not the page for you if you are in search of jubilance 24/7. this is me- at my truest and most raw form.

i have never been a strong or effective communicator unless it involved writing. blogging is new to me. i am just beginning but i am extremely hopeful that i may reach someone and let everyone know that you are not alone in any of your journeys.

while i have a great life with my wonderful girlfriend, brooke and my fur baby, bug. i face depression, anxiety, bipolar disorders, and deal with numerous autoimmune diseases. many days i feel down, as i have struggled with medication changes time and time again. however, i know that many others must be dealing with the same dreadful feelings in their journeys too.

one of my health journeys began in fifth grade, when i was diagnosed with hashimoto’s disease. later in life, i was then diagnosed with anxiety and depression which lead to my diagnosis of bipolar depression. i have tried dozens of medications which have caused severe side effects and landed me in the hospital. at times i question my sanity and why i continue to fight this endless battle daily. i am always brought back to my girlfriend, my mother, and my fur baby. when times get tough, i know that i can always count on my people to be there for me.

throughout my journey, i have learned a lot about myself and my determination for my happiness. i fight everyday of my life even if that means that i only was able to accomplish a shower that day. so while it is just “another day in paradise”, i pray that dark under-towing current doesn’t sweep you up.

one of my favorite quotes by john green is, “your now is not your forever” and that is something i remind myself of daily. whatever you are facing in your life right now- you will get through it. this is only temporary. however, i am a realist and that means that i am fully aware of what is real and happening at all times. so i will spare you the cheerful bull**** and let you all know that sometimes, life just sucks. do you ever feel like just giving up? i think about it often. just know, giving up isn’t an option. who makes your life worth living? remind them that you are grateful for their support.

& just remember, you got this!