hello and welcome back! i am back to my late night blogging. firstly, i would like to begin by apologizing for my vanishing into thin air. due to medication changes, mental health struggles, and a lot of work on myself, i am now back and hoping to be better than ever.
in these last few weeks, i felt that showering was a little extra hard and sometimes i would forget to feed myself. i sat and let my thoughts begin to fester essentially allowing myself to just be consumed by my every concerned thought. i have just begun a new medication and i’m feeling a bit better.
the last several weeks have been an emotional roller coaster and my strength has been greatly tested. however, i am here today and still dreaming of one day writing a blog with great importance and relevance.
i hope that you all have been getting your sleep, drinking your water, and taking care of your selves. i never know from one day to the next how i will be feeling, as being bipolar and depressed is an endless battle.
sadly, many do not understand nor will they ever. i often think to myself of all the times in my life that i may have commented on the way someone behaved or presented themselves but now, i have a true grasp of what it is like to always feel different.
my entire life i have always felt different. i never cared for celebrities, cheese, or barbies. i was always “off” but i like to believe in a positive way. i have always had the desire to blaze a trail. i have never felt satisfied to be a part of this generation. i have always had an old soul. i have true appreciation for culture and for life. i can set aside time from my social media. i love experiencing what the world has to offer. i want to change a life, to influence positively, to spread awareness of issues that many have no knowledge of, and to really make a difference,
i will keep dreaming and i hope you do too!
– just jacie
just jacie 